ZE LIFE UPDATE

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Hi Guys! I mentioned in my Sunshine Blogger Award post that shit has been taking place in my life, and I was pretty much absent on the Internet for a whole month, so this is me telling you what happened! (AND Di @ Book Reviews by Di has been shouting at me to post this, oh well.)
I am doing this post in a chronological order based upon the events that happened-
In January, after I posted my review for the Fantastic Beasts movie. (A few days after that)
I think I had a Math school test on the 23rd? I had prepared well, everything was good, but just the day before the test, I got my period. (I thought not to put this thing here, but it is a natural process and it happens to every girl, so it’s your problem if you can’t handle me talking about it) I have horrible horrible cramps so I just had a shit load of anxiety (I don’t have an anxiety disorder, but I sometimes get anxiety. It’s not really that bad as compared to other people)
I think I will get horrible marks, and I am in literal pain for the whole night. The next day that is the test day, I somehow write the test, along with the cramps. Ugh.
Then actually a good thing happened! I got 44 out of 45 in that test. Prabhleen = Happy (but not for a long time, since that’s the plot twist)
The Indian Republic Day is on the 26th of January, and it basically rained aaaallll day, I couldn’t go to the craft store because I had projects to make, so that sucked as well.
The next day in school our teacher announces that we have to do a play in Hindi in the next two days, and she made groups in class.
I made a Whattsapp group, and I wanted to discuss everything with the people in the group, BUT THEY NEVER RESPONDED! So I had to make the script entirely on my own, and the topic had to be a social issue and we (that means I) chose farmer suicide. The play ended well, although my group members never learned their lines! Wow.
So it comes to the point where February starts.
One of my frenemies in school (I don’t want to talk about the worthless fights and shit that takes place in school because you all deserve better than that) has her birthday so she gets around 15 gifts, from some people. I mean I wasn’t jealous or anything since I am better than that, but she show offed oh so much, and I strained my eyes from all the eye rolling. My eyes are really weak and I wear glasses so that didn’t really help either.
Then we have rain for a few days more, the weather was humid as hell, and I couldn’t go outside the house because of this. (Except for like the usual school)
I had decided to start preparing for my exams at the start of February, and I did start, but I just don’t know. I felt like I couldn’t study at all, I had anxiety, I cried to sleep everyday, I then have a bookish slump, so books really didn’t help either.
I tried to study, I really did! But I couldn’t. And everything depends on these exams since I won’t get an award if I don’t perform extra well (I always get A1s, but I have to get this award, and I have been trying for it for the past 3 years) so then I get worried that I am not going to pass them, I am going to fail, just the usual thoughts you have before exams.
Oh and between this I start a bookstagram account too! I get around 300 followers in two weeks, which I definitely think was commendable, but I wasted all of my time scrolling through it and I had no inspiration whatsoever. I forced myself to take the pictures and they were quite nice if I speak the truth, but I was never okay with the fact that I was forcing myself to do it. I couldn’t study again, because of Instagram since I wasted all of
my time, so I deleted the app. I would never ever regret this decision.
After deleting the app, I start to study better but it is still not that much if I want to get a top grades award.
Oh and then I get my period again on the 18th Feb! Horrible cramps!! Couldn’t study at all!! Even moving was a problem, tbh.
After my period ended,I put myself through studying all day, there was this day when I studied forΒ 7 hours straight! I still got worried about what is going to happen, got a lot of sleepless nights in which I basically cried all the night long. And the crying was so awful that you couldn’t even hear me!
Finally, oh finally I pick up the ACOTAR books by SJM, and I downright hate the first one. It was awful and sexist and abusive in my opinion, so I was really mad about that for a few days.
The last bad thing that happened-
my iPad broke. My brother accidentally dropped it and now I have got a new one although it’s a Mini 2 and my previous one was an Air 2.
So after these shitty incidents, I think I am able to study better, and my Math final exam was yesterday, and it went really well(although I am unsure about one question though)
That’s the shit that was happening! Even though school is tough and I usually blog once in two weeks, I blog hop basically every two days. I didn’t even do that so you know that it was serious. My page views suffered quite a lot, and I was upset about that as well. There is one secret- because of getting worried about the page views, and I don’t have much followers at all, I thought that I was worthless, this blog is worthless, so let’s just delete it. I never did that though since you are really on my blog right now!
Guys, lastly I want to thank you all if you’ve stuck up so far with me. If you’ve ever visited my blog, commented, followed, just remember that I will never forget you despite whatever happens in my life. Love you all. <33
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34 thoughts on “ZE LIFE UPDATE

  1. Oh chic – what a crazy year it’s been for you! I’m sorry about the horribly painful cramps – it’s DAMN HARD being a woman.

    The stress with the exams etc – I know it’s a lot to go through, but you will get there and you sound like a fantastic student.

    Prioritising is just one of those things – you have to chose where you want to succeed, and at the end of the day, blogging, bookstagram and twitter and all of these things are just fun hobbies! You might stress yourself over the responsibility you make yourself feel for them – but at the end of the day it’s just a hobby and one you should ENJOY! Not stress over. I love coming to your blog and chatting and I love you coming by my blog and on Goodreads – I’d miss you if you disappeared off the blogosphere! So even if you only update once in a while, keep at it and just give it more time when you have more time – LIFE COMES FIRST.

    Sorry about ACOTAR 😦 I loved that one – as you know!

    And SUPER sorry about your iPad – that’s a huge disaster! I’m glad you replaced it though.

    I hope your results for the last math exam are as good as the first!!! I’ll be waiting for another update to hear results. πŸ™‚

    xx

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    1. I know right? And it’s basically every month that we have to handle this pain. 😦
      Thank you so much, I hope so too! I am just really anxious about the exams!
      I know about the hobby thing, like I stressed myself OH SO MUCH for swimming but then I asked myself whether I want to be a swimmer or not, and the answer was no. So here I am πŸ™‚ (I am not even that good lol)
      I would have missed you and other wonderful peeps that I have met here too, but I had decided not to quit Goodreads because my reading life would be a mess then!
      Actually since it was my brother’s fault, my dad immediately got me a new one, but if I was the one who had dropped it, I would have had to beg him for weeks. πŸ˜„
      I have also decided to do Monthly wrap ups from this month onwards, so you will be hearing a lot about my personal life too!
      Thanks for this comment and being awesome Di! ❀

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  2. Oh Prabhleen, I’m so sorry for all those awful things you’ve been going through. And I totally understand it, cos I’ve been through all that too. I really hope things pick up soon.

    I felt the same about ACOTAR: SO SO SEXIST. Tamlin and Feyre were just YUCK. But I quite liked Rhysand…

    It can get so infuriatingly distracting having Instagram or Twitter, etc. I often struggle to put down my tablet when I’m doing school (I’m homeschooled, but still). In the end I just have to remind myself to breathe, leave the screen alone, and relax: if I don’t reply to a blog comment in the next second or so, IT’S OKAY. Life comes first, as Di says.

    Really hope March is a good month for you! *hugs* ❀

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    1. Aww thank you so much Amy!
      I can never hop onto the SJM train, I feel like her books are way too problematic for my tastes.
      Yesss…I can totally relate to that, it gets so tough to do it, but in the end, that really won’t help, would it? Wasting time will just cause more shit.
      Thanks again ❀

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  3. Oh sweetie! I’m so sorry about everything that has been going on with you this year! Totally understand about the cramps. I’m really jealous of all those who don’t feel a thing during their period but I for one feel like throwing myself off a cliff. Worst is when I get cramps in the middle of the night and literally roll on the bed, the floor trying to take my mind off it (Obviously this never works) College sucked pretty bad for me this year too.. Too many extra classes, assignments and all the usual crap! :/

    And see, that’s the reason I’ve decided that ACOTAR is not for me! ever!

    Also OMG, talk about crazy show off people! I know quite a few people like that. Like I told you in your previous post I can be a sarcastic bitch when I want to and I totally use my super cool sarcastic powers on these mean/ selfish/ show off-y people. πŸ˜›

    And exams!! I know the pressure! I finish my undergraduate degree this year and I’m going for top ranks! I’m 3rd right now among all the life science degrees ..I gotta stay in the top three and that makes me get all worked up whenever I think of exams :/ Also, I’ve written two entrance exams for MSc and awaiting results!!

    And so sorry you aren’t on Insta anymore! But yeah, not fun when you aren’t even interested !! I hope you have a better month ahead!! ❀ Loads of love ❀ ❀

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    1. I know. Periods totally suck. Wait. I try that trick too OMG TWINNING.
      Exams cause a shit load of stress, even though I get great marks, I never let that fact get to my head, and am always scared before the exams.
      Yay! Hope you get the top rank Uma! Wishing you the very best.
      I would like never ever recommend ACOTAR to anyone…. just like stay away.
      I am just taking a break from insta, I don’t really know when I will be back. 😦 Guess I just need to take some time. I also know for a fact that next year of school is going to be really tough, so I don’t really know.

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  4. Ah Prabhleen, sorry that the past few months have been so shitty! I totally relate to the horrible cramps, they can really be complete torture and yet people still expect us to function normally with them. Being a woman can really suck sometimes! About your group work, that is so awful that they let you do all the work. Ugh, people can be so terrible sometimes!
    Hope your exams will all turn out ok and you will win the award! Definitely try not to feel guilty about not blogging that much. Sometimes other things need priority and that’s ok. We will all still be here when you’re back! And I do hope you won’t delete your blog altogether because I love reading your posts and chatting in the comments and would miss that a lot ❀ Hope March will be so much better for you!

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    1. Thank you so much Lindsey, you’re the best! PERIODS DO SUCK THIS IS A TRUTH UNIVERSALLY ACKNOWLEDGED AHEM.
      I really hope so too, so far half of my exams are over and according to me they went well πŸ˜„
      Let’s hope I don’t make any mistakes or something lol
      I won’t definitely delete it. Like it was a thought, then I thought better and oh well here we are now! πŸ™‚

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  5. Prabhleen, I’m so sorry the last few weeks have been so sucky for you! I TOTALLY get you about the exam stress! I need good grades as I want to study astrophysics but I get so stressed about exams that I end up not being able to study because I can’t concentrate on my school because I’m too busy stressing about my worries. UGH. And then I also sometimes I can’t read because I’m too stressed about school. So, I get you. If you ever need to talk, I’M HERE! ❀

    Hopefully March will be better for you and good luck with all your exams! xx

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  6. I’m so sorry for such a horrible couple of weeks! What a year 2017 has been already. I hope you do well in the exams and the rest of the term. You’ve got this! Just keep muddling through – it will all pass. =) If you love blogging then it doesn’t matter if you have zero followers and zero pageviews! Just keep doing what you’re doing because you love it.

    Have a great weekend, Prabhleen! =)

    Alyssa @ The Eater of Books!

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  7. sorry to hear you’ve had such a rough time! Hopefully things can only get better! But try not to stress over blogging and what not – hobbies should be fun, not obligations. Soon as blogging becomes a chore I think thats a sure sign you need a break from it – the blogging community will always be here waiting for you! And if you don’t have time to write posts, just read them. It doesn’t mean your less involved!

    But fingers crossed for your exams – and although it may seem like it now, test scores are not the be all and end all! I would say try to find something to distract yourself from the stress of exams! Books are always a big help πŸ™‚ Anyway, best wishes for March!

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    1. Thank you so much for your comment and your advice Sarah ❀
      Books HAVE BEEN ALWAYS my refuge, whether that be exams, cat fights with friends, or whatever problem that I am having in life. it just feels like books really "get" you, and there is nothing which can match the experience of reading a book πŸ™‚

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  8. Wow that is a roller coaster of emotions!! *sends you delicious cookies from the dark side* That’s awful how you have such painful periods though. 😫 My sister always does, but for some reason I’ve been blessed by the universe and never get cramps although I used to when I was younger SO I FEEL FOR YOU. Periods are the worst omg. And oh oh that’s awesome about doing well with the math test!! And I’m glad you didn’t delete your blog. I’d miss chatting to you. πŸ’•

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  9. Oh, Prabhleen, I’m so sorry to hear that 😦
    There are times in our lives when everything just seems to go horribly wrong.
    As someone who suffers from unimaginably horrible cramps and anxiety disorder, I can’t begin to tell you how much I relate to this post.
    My period is basically my worst enemy EVER. I *dread* each time it’s about to arrive. It always means I can’t so much as move from my bed and have no good night sleep whatsoever.
    It literally pains me to hear other girls suffering the same thing.
    No to mention, additional stress on your period will only make things go worse.
    At times like that, it’s really important to take a break from everything. To take care of your health, gather up your strength and come back smiling (:
    Stay strong, Prabhleen!
    I’m always here if you ever need to talk (:

    P,S: I’m so happy that you wrote it all out. It’s really important to talk about these things!

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    1. Thank you so much for your sweet comment Zoey!
      Cramps are seriously so horrible omg. I feel like I am also dreading when it is coming nearby. I have a calendar in my room and I cross off every day, so I feel awful when my periods are nearby. 😦
      Thank you again. I am happy too since I overcame my fear and I posted something so personal like this online πŸ™‚

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  10. Sometimes it’s horrible being a female isn’t it. Mine used to be super painful too but as I’ve gotten older they’ve calmed down so much. Hopefully it’s the same for you as well Prabhleen. That sucks about your team mates, leaving all the work for yourself to do and just cruising through the assignment. I hope next month is so much brighter for you and we’re all here to listen sweetheart ❀ ❀

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  11. Oh wow, I’m so sorry to hear that you’ve been having such a horrible time lately. I hope things start to look up for you soon and especially that those horrible cramps start to ease up. That’s the worst 😦

    And don’t stress about not being able to blog as much as you like. We all understand that life and its stresses get in the way. Wishing you the best of luck on all of your upcoming exams. πŸ™‚

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  12. Oh no! Ok, I’ll comment in chronological order since that’s how you did the post. Congrats on doing so well on the exam! But ugh, group projects are just the worst. I’m so glad I will never have to deal with those ever again. I was always that person who had to do everything and was stressed the hell out. 300 followers in two weeks sounds amazing (tell me all your social media secrets, haha), but it does sound like you made the right decision. Sometimes we have to prioritize, and you can always go back to Instagram in the future if you want when you do have more time to devote to it. I’m sorry about all the anxiety and cramps can be TERRIBLE. I’ve had them too where I couldn’t even move for hours, could hardly eat all day, etc. It sounds like you’re doing the best you can with everything though! It does suck that page views suffer so much when we’re struggling with life and don’t have the time or energy or whatever to be as active with blogging, but that happens to everyone’s blogs, so you and your blog are not worthless! Just keep blogging whenever you can if it makes you happy πŸ™‚

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    1. Thank you Kristen πŸ™‚
      Group projects always suck. It’s like I always have to do everything without getting any contribution from my classmates WHO DEFINITELY SUCK.
      I don’t really have any secrets? Like I was really frequent and on IG the whole day…. so then I just deleted the app ://
      Thank you for your advice! And your blog always suffers when you don’t post, but that’s just life, isn’t it?

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  13. Oh, no. Poor iPad. Damn cramps. But congrats on the exam! I hope the following weeks will be great again and you’ll get tons to read πŸ™‚ Very interesting post, I love to read about everyone’s lives!

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  14. You’ve had a lot going on, but we’re all here so don’t delete your blog if you enjoy it. We all have to take breaks or have bad stretches or whatevs… so hang in there! Hopefully the worst is over for a while and you’ll have a better month!

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  15. ok oh wow. that’s quite the update P! ok great news with the exam. No so much about the pain sorry to hear that. AND WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT BOOKSTAGRAM. I have a post drafted about that obsession I have. So YAY! and congrats on the explosive bookstagram, stardom!
    AND I AM SO HAPPY NOW I HAVEN’T READ ACOTAR! Thank you babe πŸ™‚

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