Hi Guys! I mentioned in my Sunshine Blogger Award post that shit has been taking place in my life, and I was pretty much absent on the Internet for a whole month, so this is me telling you what happened! (AND Di @ Book Reviews by Di has been shouting at me to post this, oh well.)
I am doing this post in a chronological order based upon the events that happened-
In January, after I posted my review for the Fantastic Beasts movie. (A few days after that)
I think I had a Math school test on the 23rd? I had prepared well, everything was good, but just the day before the test, I got my period. (I thought not to put this thing here, but it is a natural process and it happens to every girl, so it’s your problem if you can’t handle me talking about it) I have horrible horrible cramps so I just had a shit load of anxiety (I don’t have an anxiety disorder, but I sometimes get anxiety. It’s not really that bad as compared to other people)
I think I will get horrible marks, and I am in literal pain for the whole night. The next day that is the test day, I somehow write the test, along with the cramps. Ugh.
Then actually a good thing happened! I got 44 out of 45 in that test. Prabhleen = Happy (but not for a long time, since that’s the plot twist)
The Indian Republic Day is on the 26th of January, and it basically rained aaaallll day, I couldn’t go to the craft store because I had projects to make, so that sucked as well.
The next day in school our teacher announces that we have to do a play in Hindi in the next two days, and she made groups in class.
I made a Whattsapp group, and I wanted to discuss everything with the people in the group, BUT THEY NEVER RESPONDED! So I had to make the script entirely on my own, and the topic had to be a social issue and we (that means I) chose farmer suicide. The play ended well, although my group members never learned their lines! Wow.
So it comes to the point where February starts.
One of my frenemies in school (I don’t want to talk about the worthless fights and shit that takes place in school because you all deserve better than that) has her birthday so she gets around 15 gifts, from some people. I mean I wasn’t jealous or anything since I am better than that, but she show offed oh so much, and I strained my eyes from all the eye rolling. My eyes are really weak and I wear glasses so that didn’t really help either.
Then we have rain for a few days more, the weather was humid as hell, and I couldn’t go outside the house because of this. (Except for like the usual school)
I had decided to start preparing for my exams at the start of February, and I did start, but I just don’t know. I felt like I couldn’t study at all, I had anxiety, I cried to sleep everyday, I then have a bookish slump, so books really didn’t help either.
I tried to study, I really did! But I couldn’t. And everything depends on these exams since I won’t get an award if I don’t perform extra well (I always get A1s, but I have to get this award, and I have been trying for it for the past 3 years) so then I get worried that I am not going to pass them, I am going to fail, just the usual thoughts you have before exams.
Oh and between this I start a bookstagram account too! I get around 300 followers in two weeks, which I definitely think was commendable, but I wasted all of my time scrolling through it and I had no inspiration whatsoever. I forced myself to take the pictures and they were quite nice if I speak the truth, but I was never okay with the fact that I was forcing myself to do it. I couldn’t study again, because of Instagram since I wasted all of
my time, so I deleted the app. I would never ever regret this decision.
After deleting the app, I start to study better but it is still not that much if I want to get a top grades award.
Oh and then I get my period again on the 18th Feb! Horrible cramps!! Couldn’t study at all!! Even moving was a problem, tbh.
After my period ended,I put myself through studying all day, there was this day when I studied for 7 hours straight! I still got worried about what is going to happen, got a lot of sleepless nights in which I basically cried all the night long. And the crying was so awful that you couldn’t even hear me!
Finally, oh finally I pick up the ACOTAR books by SJM, and I downright hate the first one. It was awful and sexist and abusive in my opinion, so I was really mad about that for a few days.
The last bad thing that happened-
my iPad broke. My brother accidentally dropped it and now I have got a new one although it’s a Mini 2 and my previous one was an Air 2.
So after these shitty incidents, I think I am able to study better, and my Math final exam was yesterday, and it went really well(although I am unsure about one question though)
That’s the shit that was happening! Even though school is tough and I usually blog once in two weeks, I blog hop basically every two days. I didn’t even do that so you know that it was serious. My page views suffered quite a lot, and I was upset about that as well. There is one secret- because of getting worried about the page views, and I don’t have much followers at all, I thought that I was worthless, this blog is worthless, so let’s just delete it. I never did that though since you are really on my blog right now!
Guys, lastly I want to thank you all if you’ve stuck up so far with me. If you’ve ever visited my blog, commented, followed, just remember that I will never forget you despite whatever happens in my life. Love you all. <33